Thursday, October 9, 2008

Smoking Update

My update is that I'm not. Smoking that is. In case anyone was wondering. Tomorrow will be 6 weeks.

I can't even begin to describe how liberated I feel. I'm seeing the world through new eyes.

At this point I only want a cigarette once a day. Or maybe less. I've been sick this week and didn't even think about smoking once today. Back in the day it didn't matter how sick I was, how bad my allergies were, I still would manage to smoke.

I realize that I forget to breathe. It seems so silly, forgetting to do the most natural thing in the world. Luckily we don't need to think about making our hearts beat. But if I pay attention, I notice that I hold my breath a lot. And really, the more I hold my breath, the more I want to smoke. I think that the desire to smoke has been tied to the desire to take a deep breath as ironic as that might sound. I'm relearning how to inhale deeply without taking a drag. I've really been trying to be cognizant of this. And to breath.

One major life task down, so many more to go!


Rosemarie said...

Go Amy! Go Amy!

Traci said...

BREATHE girl! So proud of you and happy to know that someone out there has successfully kicked the habit. I know it is so difficult for so many.